I always get cold feet when I start to become close with a girl. It’s not that I’m scared, it’s not that I don’t want to get too involved, but it’s because my body seems to have a natural response to affection; fleeing. My mind has implemented the fact that I won’t find someone to keep all my years ahead at this young age, I’m only 16. I’ve just been through enough let downs with relationships that I don’t have to tell myself,”Oh this is going to end at a certain point,” my mind already knows. It’s like when a song is on repeat, you start memorizing the lyrics, however it’s not a song, it’s relationships and you begin to memorize a pattern.
Fuck it, I’ll just go asexual.